So I’ve been in a relationship with my boyfriend for about 6 months maybe less. He is really nice to me, he’ll drive my car because he has a better memory and focus. He hands me stuff when I can’t find them, you know, I notice the little things. He always makes me feel welcome and included. His mom lets me come to their house all the time, and it doesn’t seem an issue that I’m at their house a lot. I’d invite him over to my house more but my mom can be paranoid. He understands. He also has schizoaffective disorder, like me. He just ran out of his prescription for Clozaril and they are not refilling it or something about paperwork because it’s on a watch list for side effects. But he really likes it, and said it helps him the most. It’s true he’s very focused on it.
My psychiatrist told me I have high insight into my illness. I talk to him about this stuff but I think it makes him kind of uncomfortable sometimes. But he talks a lot about his past experiences and I like being there for him.
I just don’t know what to do when he gets delusional. I don’t know because I can’t talk him out of his delusions, and he still gets them from time to time on his medication. He just ran out a few days ago. He seemed to quickly start saying more delusional things. It makes me wonder if his medication works as well as mine. But he said what I take made him depressed. He also struggles with depression, where I have more of mania.
I really love my boyfriend, but sometimes I wonder if he likes me the same way. I’m glad I’m with him but sometimes I think we overwhelm each other. We spend a lot of time together. I don’t want him to leave me for someone else. He said he wants to keep dating, but sometimes we don’t connect while other times we connect a lot more.