I hope things work out for you. I bet it is hard to see where you stand with him. Take care
I know this is an old post, but, I am in the same position now. My bf just left for work and when he gets home tonight, I am going to ask him to move out. I canât handle the highs and lows any more. Especially with my son around. When we first met he was the most amazing man I had ever known. Two months after dating he had his first mental brake with me and that was when I discovered his mental illness. Being the co-dependent that I am, I knew I could help him find peace and happiness. Now it has been three years and I just canât do it any more. I havenât seen the happy self in more than a month now. His good days and bad days are all over the place. More bad day than good. On his bad days he says the most awful and hurtful things to me. I know deep down he doesnât mean them, but hearing it day after day has worn me down. Iâm glad I found this page to vent.
Thank you for reading.
Melissa
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I am so sorry Melissa. Our family members are often amazing people when not besieged by their brain disorder.
Love canât make the lows stop happening. If it could, all our family members would be well.
We love them so much and we want the scz to stop.
Take care of your son.
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We totally understand, Melissa. A person can only take so much verbal abuse, whether itâs due to mental illness or not. It just gets old.
As someone on this forum said awhile back, we have to learn âthe art of detachmentâ. Itâs so true, but itâs also easier said than done.
Good luck with this upcoming change.
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My ex , he also schizophrenia, been hospitalised for two years before when he was 27, now he is 36, purpose move away from his family and the city I live in so he doesnât have to deal with interpersonal relationship.
He used to have many medical help and professional help back home , he said nothing helped, and he refused to get help at our city .
We broke up yesterday, itâs the 5th time he ask for breakup in our 1.5 years of relationship, this time I feel like itâs really over. We still love each other very much , he doesnât cheat , he doesnât heavily drink , but he is always at home, he said he wants to be in his âbubblesâ. I have always been accepting and let him be him. I know itâs noy his fault , and being schizophrenic is not what defines who is and I love him so dearly despite what he has.
Even though itâs been so many time , every time when it happens , it still hurts me so much. I never expected and ask much from him because I know he might now be able to provide, but itâs ok for me , I accept everything and anything he has.
He said cutting off people has been the most effective way he âsurvivedâ life , and from time to time he needs to be cut off and âunswitchedâ as he said. Everytime he said break up , I will eventually show up to his house. So for him, break up is not most serious thing , he always said people get back together all the time after breakups.
This is the fifth time, and he has another break down again ,I ask him , what he wants , his answer is always âI donât know â .
All I want to know itâs , after he got better , does he still want us, if yes I will be there , despite anything, I will give him time like before. Even just such a simple answer of yes and no, all I got still is âI donât know â . And finally I forced him the âbreak upâ out of him. I donât know whether I should keep showing up like before ? Maybe I should give up this time ?
yep, like the movie groundhog day, caught in a time loop for the rest of your lifeâŚ