@DianeR, things have gotten better for me, as I’ve had time to accept what has happened to my now 23 year old son, and I have learned how to better manage my grief.
My son, on the other hand, remains highly symptomatic, with voices, delusions, and paranoia, even after 2 full years of Invega Sustenna’s highest dosage. He also has no motivation to do anything to improve the quality of his life, like a job, peer advocacy, play basketball, try Clozaril, etc… He just lays on the couch all day. It’s a shitty outcome. He’s so unlucky.
The only saving grace is that he mostly is not tormented by his voices. He’s generally a happy guy.