I have been with him on/off for 12 years. He has gotten to the point that all he does is sleep. He moans and groans loudly all the time. In the morning he yells/moans because he feels claustrophobic in his room. He is a hypochondriac and complains constantly about his real or imagined physical ailments. He gets a government check for disability and gambles it away playing “ding, ding” machines at gas stations. He refused to pay me any rent money. I finally got him to agree to pay me $100/month. But he never does because he loses it gambling.
He stays with me sometimes and his dad has a camper in his driveway he stays at as well. He wont stay in one place for long. He’s always driving around in the middle of the night. He makes this awful music on his phone and writes horrible rap lyrics to it. They are mean and talk about how everyone hates him but he doesn’t care because God is with him. He hears voices constantly and refuses to change his meds. When he spends the night at my house he sleeps in my guest bedroom and says people are knocking on the side of the house at night and whistling. He’s on a monthly Abilify injection and takes Abilify orally when he feels like it. I have begged him to tell his Dr he’s hearing things really bad but he says “Abilify was sent to him by God and it changed his life”. I caught him looking at animated porn. He laughs about it. He has the maturity of a 13 year old.
I just got tired of the negative energy and arguing. He tells me I “hate men” when I try to talk to him about any of this. I was abused my whole life by men. My father was very mean and abusive.
I just want a normal happy life. I feel like he’s not my husband and we have no kids. So why am I dealing with this? I’m 54 and he is 42. He’s getting worse.