It’s been a while since I’ve last been here and a lot has happened. My boyfriend has schizophrenia and for about 5 months he seemed to be doing well. We started talking about moving in together and working up to save money for a deposit. Things didnt last because my boyfriend decided to smoke marijuana.
Things started to go downhill and in the week of a surgery I had he began to say horrible things. He called me a whore, a slut, and questioned who I’ve slept with. I didnt mind it so much but then his comments kept getting worse and worse. My mental state began to get worse and worse because we talked every day for about 3 hours at a time. The only words I would hear from him were vicious and demanding. Over the weekend I begged him with tears of blood to get help because our relationship wont make it at this rate. I kept begging him and he said he’ll get help.
Two days later he returned back to calling me horrible things so I decided to cut off our conversations everytime he wouldn’t talk about anything else.
Yesterday my boyfriend texted me that he is going to the hospital but wont tell me any information. He believes we need a break and he’ll reach out once he gets out.
My mind isnt in a good place and I’ve had history of suicidal thoughts so this break will be permanent because I cant go down that road again.