Is your son on medication? This illness is not logical. I have to keep reminding myself of that.
How to deal with my sadness of my sons schizophrenia
Heās been prescribed several meds at different times, everything from Invega Sustenna injections to Zyprexa, to Vraylar, to Seroquel, including Ativan, and some others. Big issue is heās non-compliant for following any medication protocol. Lately, the best Iāve been able to do is get him to take the Seroquel, but even then heāll stop. I worry about how this affects the medicationās ability to be effective.
When he does follow the medication protocol, he is so much better that you could forget he has an illness. Heās fairly high functioning even when off the meds, but when he is off, his delusions are in full force. It gets even worse when the mania sets in. And heās almost always off the meds. Yeah, there is nothing logical about this disorder.
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No there isnāt. My son will absolutely not take pills. He is on Invega Trinza 4x a year. He goes because we physically take him. Also, he knows the alternative is police and hospitalization.
Yes its so very sad its like grieving for the person that was yet by some miracle u keep hoping that he\she will come back its very difficult to come to terms with such a sad illness. I am still trying to adjust + like u I spend a lot of time crying + wishing it all away + of course I go through the why us?? We can only take one day at,a time + thank God for sites like these where there is no judgement take care
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I feel this, too. My daughter is in her late teens and should be getting ready to graduate and go to college. Now I find myself wondering what the next several years will have in store for her as I slowly watch her become someone else. The depression comes in waves for me. Right now I am strugglingā¦This illness is so tragic. I definitely feel less alone reading the thoughts and stories on here.
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Hi Daisy it is so heartbreaking my daughter is 35 this month + I have to deal with her drug taking + her illness. There r so many days I just want to stay in bed not face the world. Cause I know every day is a drama and I long for peace.Yesterday shes told me shes going back to her ex husband after 2 years of seperation. To say I was disappointed is mild this man got her on drugs violently attacked her every day. Sexual assaulted her attacked me isolates her from her family.im so tired of trying to keep her apart from him. I moved her closer to me all I can see now is chaos she will b evicted from her residence as every place that they were in he got her evicted. Ive been by her side since she was 16yrs old of course since birth. But issues since 16 and im so so tired They say never close the door but shes cost me 3 relationships my own sanity . Im very confused to know what to do?y current partner is on the verge of leaving. Its so hard as im not sure she just got scitzophrenia or it was drug induced? There is mental health in my family but I have to wonder was it bought on through her taking drugs And when she does drugs all her meds r messed up hey im sorry for the long post just feeling very alone.
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@Eli55, there are so many people living in darkness and depression, not all, but some. Perhaps other families (MI and the caregivers) on here have stabilized somewhat and have reached a point of consistency.
As for me, I still feel as I did 5 years ago, when my son was first diagnosed @ 19. Just feeling overwhelmingly sad, numb, and hopeless, like thereās no way out. This is my sonās life now, and this is my life now.
My older son just said to me, āmom, you are obsessed with him. Thatās all you ever think about or talk aboutā. Itās true. I wish I could feel light hearted enough to break away and focus on myself alittle more, but I admit itās hard for me. Itās like my
Sz son controls how my day is going to be. If heās having a descent day, Iām happy. If heās angry or having an āoffā day, I get scared and worry myself to death. Itās amazing to me how much control he exerts over me, and heās not even doing it intentionally.
Iām always worried about him doing something thatās going to either cost us money or land him in jail. I always think of the worst case scenario.
This life is hell on so many of us. Just know that @Eli55, youāre not in hell alone.
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It is very hard watching our children suffer. As parents, we want the best of everything for them. I think we all feel helpless regarding this illness. Whether it was drug induced or brought on by natural causes, all we can do is love them and attempt to guide them to make good life choices.
I admire your dedication and concern for your daughter. She is lucky to have you. Do you have anyone close by you can go out to eat with or to the movies with? Sometimes we have to put ourselves first. As the saying goes, āYou canāt pour from an empty cup.ā
I know that my own daughter has been used and abused by friends and boyfriends. Her counselor is trying to teach her to say no and not be victimized. From what my daughter tells me, this illness makes her feel so worthless, alone, and bad about herself, that if anyone shows any interest towards her, she jumps on it because she is lonely. The counselor has warned me that people with sz are often victimized.
Does your daughter see a counselor? It may help her and then it would shift some of the responsibility off you. You definitely need someone to talk with, too.
Thinking of you. Thank you for reaching out. It means a lot.
Thank you for showing that you care My daughter sees a phyciatrist once a week no councelling although I put that in place she hasnāt taken it up. Sounds to me your daughter is very much like mine Its heartbreaking to watch as their mothers seeing them so used + abused + we feel so helpless in how to help them. I use to go have coffee etc Though not now as everytime I try to arrange something my daughter has always got another drama happening. I so wish like you that she had good friends hobbies something to take away the.lonliness but as hard as I try nothing works. She like u daughter feels worthless etc we feel so heartbroken we shed so many tears for them they have no idea how badly we feel Ive had a terrible wend with.my daughter deciding to reunite with her very violent husband after 2 years of seperation. Now of course shes using drugs etc I appologize I cant write too long as I have glaucoma my eyes get very sore can I be in touch later in the week?? Please take care
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