I’ve read many gracious and loving caregivers here who have said that when their loved one is in the height of psychosis… they (the care giver) understands that their loved one is not in their right mind, so they forgive and move on when their son/spouse/ parent when the wheels fall off.
but It’s got to hurt. I for one am very grateful for my parents patience and willingness to forgive and move on. But it had to be heart breaking. Caregivers are people too, with feelings to hurt and hopes that are dashed and fingers that are crossed…
I’m really struggling with this situation. My youngest brother is due out of hospital very soon. This is just building up in my mind to epic proportions of chaos and destruction. I am at a loss for word’s to describe how over the top angry I am at this guy. I’m also ashamed of myself with how angry and cold I’m feeling towards him. He’s been diagnosed as bipolar 1 and I haven’t even spoken to him personally in a while. I’ve dropped off socks, I’ve talked to the nurses and got caught up through our parents. But I’ve yet to look him in the eye.
It’s been said that I should keep the hand of cautious friendship extended. I agree. Logically, when I’m sitting here, at my desk, drinking my coffee, I completely agree.
But then as the day gets going, my logical side fades and I just end up being angry and wising for very horrid and inappropriate things to happen to this youngest brother. Not cool.
How do you let go of the anger and tap into that well of forgiveness. I’ve learned how to let of general anger and anger of situations. But direct anger at a person for a specific thing… I’m still working on.
I hate the feeling of anger and I know that’s not doing me any favors either. How did you over come or address your own feelings when you loved one was over the psychosis and looking around at the damage?