First time poster, I hope I’m doing this okay. I don’t have people to talk to about this.
My dads taken a liking to abusing over the counter drugs. No matter what we do for him he always somehow gets it. I can no longer tell if he’s just manic or is also high.
He’s been hospitalized, he’s gone to a mental health facility, and the drugs they gave him turn him into a drooling zombie so he’s not taking them anymore.
The other night I heard a loud thump like someone fell and he was just laying there. Then got back up and fell again and eventually my mom took over. It was terrifying but he ended up okay, relatively speaking.
The hardest part is I can never tell when he’s being himself or lucid anymore. I don’t trust him when he’s overly happy or trying to kid around with me. I’m one of the only people he trusts so he’s always talking to me about his miracles and religion. It’s distressing to hear.
He’s the provider of the family and while my mom has a job as well just in case he can’t keep it I’m constantly stressed he’s going to spiral again.
My mom has to listen to everything he says for hours,and Is constantly being heckled by him, whether it’s him arguing with her and following her around the house to fight with her or have him wake her up in the middle of the night so she’ll watch his favorite movie with him for the eighth time. I’m worried for her too. I want them both to be able to be happy and at peace.
He seems fine in the day and when he has to work but by night it seems like he just lets it all out. Sorry if this is too much.