I joined a couple of suppprt groups on FB including caregivers of sz and also depression/anxiety group. It appears the world is filled with angry, sad, lonely, depressed people. I go out to eat, go grocery shopping, everyone looks in a hurry, not happy, worried, lonely or just plain sad.
I’ve been a people watcher forever and I’m not sure of the reason, but I’ve become more observant and perceptive lately. Perhaps it has to do with what I’ve been dealt (my sons diagnosis), or perhaps with age comes more wisdom. I’m not sure, but I do feel myself connecting more with these types of people. I’ve always felt I was an empathetic person, but I think more so now. Perhaps they are going thru something far worse than I am, they say everyone is fighting a battle of some sort.
I do know that when life hits you hard, with it’s twists and turns, it can either make you cold and bitter or make you appreciate more of the small simple things. And yes some days I do feel angry and ask why my son? Why me? Why our family?
I just want more days with less turmoil and anxiety and more peace. Just little increments of peaceful simple things, to help me get thru. I’ve stopped asking for things that I know will never materialize. I’ve reached a point where if my son has a quiet, peaceful, uneventful day, I’m beyond ecstatic.
How my expectations, perceptions, and viewpoints have changed!