Its been a while since i posted or even came here.
I have been with my partner for 18 months now and it is my first of being with someone who has paranoid schizophrenia. Through our time together i have learnt a whole lot and also lost a part of who i was. When we used to have arguments in the beginning i always fought back and the rows would get so intense and really quite bad. As the time has gone on i have found just sitting there and being quiet and not responding to his thoughts in a negative way is the best way. Although it makes me feel like a wilted flower i just cant win or even get hime to see my view.
I do feel like i am just one fighting my own corner and he has 7 fighting in his.
I love him so very much and prepared to stick by him but i do worry it will take away who i am. Will i still be me and grow as a person or will i be chipped away and get lost. I dont know how to get stronger as i feel like im weakening. I cant talk to his family or even mine as noone knows he has it. Yes he hides it very well and his family just thinks he doesnt like crowds or people etc…
Any advice would be much appreciated. If you could work out what i am trying to say.
Thanks so much for reading