I’ve been reading the posts here for quite a while and finally decided to speak about what’s going on in my Family.
My mother was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia about 14 years ago (I was 9 at that time).
Shes been stable every now and then for up to 3 years, however, she stopped medication ~1yr ago and, as expected, her illness completely controls her again.
I’m guessing it also happened because my Family has been really abusive, trying to force medication and treatment on her.
Fast forward, she kicked my father out of the Apartment (lucky he found an apt the last Minute), my Brother has been married for a few years now and my sister moved out about 1.5 years ago with her fiance, so i’m the only one left at home.
There have been a few really traumatic events happening - One night i woke up and she was standing in front of me, laughing for hours staring at me. She’s locking the door every other day and the door can’t be opened from the outside, so about 3-4 days per week im sleeping at the stairs.
I couldn’t really sleep anywhere else, my brother has a “Deal with it” mentality about it, my dad is living in a tiny 1 room apt (and is also suffering from heavy Depression) and my sister, well, i guess my mothers illness hit her the most and she’s trying to keep a distance, can’t really take that away from her.
Since everyone else has found “a way out”, the only response i get when asking for help is that i should just be patient and hope that one day i’ll also get a shot of moving out.
I’m currently studying Computer Science in a known university in Germany and also got a job as a working student with pretty good salary (~20k per year). While i know this situation will eventually end and i’ll be fine, i just can’t continue studying.I used to be one of the best in my classes ever since i started going to school - now i hardly get anything done. It’s not even that i’m not capable of studying, it’s really simply the fact that taking care of my mother and everything else about it is just so time consuming that I just can’t keep up with anything else. It’s been getting so difficult to try to maintain a “normal life”.
I’ve tried to get my own Apartment, landlords pretty much seemed to ignore any request (housing in the City I live is really messed up right now) - most likely because 1room apts are pretty rare and giving it away to a student might not be the best idea.
I’ve been to my local Sozialamt (not sure what the exact English Word is), the woman was really nice to me but in the end her response was Kind of the same:" I really feel sorry for you, and I hope you’ll be able to finish university, but there is nothing I can do for you other than listening."
I thought about getting a room in a shared flat, however I feel like once I’m actually going to leave, given my backstory, I’m going to be a burden to potential flatmates, so i’d really prefer just having my own space right now, and hopefully finding time to actually get treatment myself (as in finding a therapist to Talk about these things).
Any Kind of advice, be it about getting an apt or whatever someone feels like telling me, is appreciated.