I only ever posted once here, in the earlier years of my mum’s battle with schizophrenia. I have watched her decline over the past ten years, and my worst fear came true, she has died.
I guess I just wanted to share this with people who would understand what a devastating loss this is. Losing my mum is painful, but knowing she died alone, confused and in squalor has broken my heart. She was 50 years old.
I tried for so many years to get her help, but she resisted heavily. Prior to her development of schizophrenia,she was bipolar and a very abusive person. Our relationship was extremely strained, but something kept me wanting and hoping she would get better.
It’s not clear yet how she died, still waiting on Post-Mortem results, but I’m not surprised she passed away. Her house, which she hadnt let me inside for years, is unhabitable. I saw it for the first time in a year or two, the day she was found.
I can only hope she has found peace, and release from her struggles