not sure if anyone remembers the entire ordeal with my ex boyfriend, an undiagnosed schizophrenic. not sure i can recap everything, but he basically was a huge asshole, stole from me, chose weed over me and his family, lied 24/7… i was basically taking care of him. he refused to even do the dishes. he was a lazy jerk. i believe his schizophrenia was his best quality, honestly.
well i left him a long while back. im sure there is a post on that too. he ended up with his dad, who let him get away with continuing to be a lazy shit. then he ended up with friends, they grew sick of his craziness and his unwillingness to work and ended up back at his dad’s. we argued over the internet a few times, even though i should have NEVER talked to him again. then he seemed to disapear. no word from him, no fb/twitter updates for four months.
then he called me out of nowhere a few weeks ago. he walked to the nearest city (a 45 minute drive) and now lives there as a hobo, from what i gathered. he has not showered for the entire time. he seemed even more delusional than ever, sure he is on even more drugs. but he said he is better off and even asked about a recent video game that came out… he obviously iis VERY delusional and cannot see how far he has fallen and how low he is. he told me he may be a pirate, maybe a cat, and that he is dante (a “voice” that he thought was a second personality as a kid that apparently took him over since then…).
he said the reason he called is that he was worried for me. why? because he was hanging out with my ghost and then it disappeared.
even though he was a piece of crap, abusive and a waste, i still feel bad that he has gotten to this point. sometimes i have dreams where i go see him. or i picture him resting his head on my lap. i guess i feel that it’s a wasted life, that he could have been helped. now he is another mentally ill homeless person with no hope of improvement. not sure how much worse it will get for him.
i do not love him anymore, not even a little bit, but i care about him. not asking for advice. but has anyone had a similar experience happen?