The last few months has been extremely challenging for my family. My daughter with sz sees to be getting worse or was she always like that and I was in denial. In the last week she was placed in the hospital for the 4th time in the last 2 months. She came home the other day. Yesterday she behaved erratically and hit me. She has never done that before and she also hit my 5 year old granddaughter on her chest leaving a mark. I called the police and now she is in jail and there is a restraining on her that she can’t come to my house and see the kids or me. A couple of months ago she threatened to kill herself right in front of her kids.
I’m extremely sad but I know I did the right thing. I’ve told her casework several times that my daughter belongs in a group home and not live with me and the kids. She’s not able to live alone as she definitely needs support. I am no longer able to give her that support. My grandchildren are a priority. Since she was diagnosed about 15 years ago I’ve always been there for her. I just can’t do it anymore. She’s become too volatile, unpredictable and scary for me and the kids to have in the house. She also refuses to take her medication and accuses me of trying to poison her. She also thinks that I have a gun hidden in my house (I’ve never owned a gun) and that I was waiting to kill her with a gun. It’s taken a toll on my 9 year old grandson. He adores his mother and he also knows his mother is not well.
My middle daughter drove about 200 miles with her son to be with me and the kids. It feels good to have her here and give us support. I know I can raise the children. I’ve learned so much about children since they have been with me and I believe I’m now a much grandmother than I ever was as a mother. As a mother I was always working and distracted. My prayers are that my daughter will eventually find wellness and that everything will work out for the better for all of us.