My illness started with my first child. Carrying was extremely hard plus my job did not make it that easy either. I dont regret my babies not one bit. Schizophrenia as i know now runs very heavy in my family. I do worry every day for my two kids. I pray and constantly worry that they might end up with it also. That is only left up to the big man upstairs. Its a very hard decision to make. But it sucks you lose everything to this illness and i mean everything. But i hold on foe the sake of my family and know things could be worse and im still far beyond blessed. Hope you make the right decision for you.
If you come across any good research material I hope u remember to post it and share it on here! And ill remember to do the same.
I really appreciated u sharing ur story