Me and my husband have been off and on for 20 years. I really believe it has been off and on because of this illness. He was diagnosed mild schizophrenic back in 2010. He has been in a mental facility once and vows never to go back. He will not accept that he is sick and I am the one sick. He will not get on meds.
Every time the voices start I can tell the signs. Headaches, not sleeping, catatonic state just a shell of who is he and starting to find other girls to abide to his illness. When he goes full blown into episode he usually leaves me and starts a complete different life. Manipulates the situation like I am cheating or lies about what all I am to him. He believes everything he is saying and there is no changing his mind on the situation.
Recently I moved to Florida to start a new career and he was supposed to come shortly after I got everything in order. During that time period of 2 to 3 weeks he found another woman again to abide to his illness. It is like he is on a high when he gets like this. I am the enemy he hates me even tho I am always the one there for him.
He quit his job for the 401K check and moved in with his mom at 40 years old, stopped seeing his kids on a regular basis. It is like he destroyed every thing we built in 2 weeks. Now he has this other woman believing the lies about me and has her going on his good guy routine. I say routine cause it is like a broken record player of what happens each time. He starts to push me away if that don’t work he starts getting physically violent, leaves, start new life with new girl, slowly removes all reminisce of me in his life.
Now I am in FL he is KY and he has blocked me on all social media, he has stopped all communication even tho he is still driving my car around and using the phone that we have together. Always the same thing he says he is happier now and he loves me but not in love with me anymore.
Look I know this man I know the man I love and loves me would never do any of this to me. I wish I could unsee the illness and just think well this is what he really does want. But he always comes back he always finds his way back to me. I want to be strong enough not to let him come back after this. I have been down in FL by myself starting a new career, and dealing with this horrible illness. It is like everything he does he does to hurt me!