To be honest im just having a hard time coping and was hoping to let it out and hear other stories, anything - even if it’s not a response to me - I just need to hear from others who are experiencing unmedicated loved ones.
My fiancée, who is now technically an ex fiancée - had an episode and cut me out of his life - he kicked me out of the home we shared - broke off the engagement and has not spoken to me in over a month. He reduced his medication for several months and has been completely off since the summer.
I know that we might not ever get back together because he has held onto other delusions for so long , of people out to get him, poisoning him and etc… he has cut off most people in his life.
The things he has said are so hurtful and of course if this was a “regular” relationship - it would be emotional abuse.
I can’t even write everything but I just wanted a safe place to let someone out there know that I am hurting and having a hard time letting go. This is not the first time he has done this and I don’t think I could do it again - I almost had to check into a hospital myself - I was thinking suicidal thoughts ( no plans)
We had a beautiful and wonderful relationship and I am just having a hard time letting go. Everyone says to move on and more importantly so did he - but i am having a hard time.