Unfortunately she, depending on where she is in her cycle of things in her head says I’m a liar, am cheating on her, etc. Then that will subside for a time (I completley lost my shit on her one morning and had to walk away I was shaking I was so mad) I regretted it from the moment it ended and have apologized many times to her. I’m human and my frustration gets the better of me.
So I have no clue what view she has of me as she doesnt tell me anything and fumes about it.
Then I’ll get periods of calm like none of this is happening.
At the end of the day shes getting to a point that she needs help, wont make the discision to do it, and the choice is going to get made for her.
I will have to live with that choice, look myself in the mirror, and know it was the right thing because she is getting worse not better. It will be a scar on my being for a long time. One that I hope she will understand was not made lightly and with her health and wellbeing in mind, and that of our families as well.
My step son Alex is starting to draw away from her, she hasnt noticed it like I have. He has always been attached to her hip as his actual father is dead. He is worried about her and is a little scared by things she does (nothing violent or dangerous).
I want my wife back and he wants and needs his mother. I just pray our family survives this.
Thanks for help, advise etc. Sorry if I’m all over and ranting.