I spoke to one of my son's old therapists about a year ago when he took a turn for the worst.
He'd been depressed/anxious & slightly psychotic on his meds for years - he had insight,etc. Then, it seemed to go into fullblown SZ overnight.
He had wanted to see her again to get a second opinion on what a new therapist was saying (he had developed some delusions surrounding the new therapist that he still has). So, I called her to make sure I was seeing the changes I thought I was seeing, and that he wasn't this sick all along & somehow I missed it.
She saw the changes too, but a few minutes into the conversation turned it on me to where we were talking about my feelings instead of his, and I wasn't comfortable with it because I felt like she was just trying to save me from the emotions I was feeling. That was really nice, but I need to feel those emotions. They help me remember to not give up & keep pushing for better help for him. After all, that's the root cause of my own distress, and why patch up other things when you can go straight after the root cause?
A few people on my son's current treatment team have asked me if I'm getting help for myself too - and again, that's outside my comfort zone. I'm sure they think I'm way too involved, and that we're co-dependent. That's probably true, but anything less would mean I'm not fully engaged, and I can't let that happen.
I like being here better, and I like my in-person support group when I have time to go. Everyone else has a loved one who's in some stage of the same thing I'm going through, they care, and they have practical advice right down to sharing doctor names & explaining how meds worked in their case.