I’m sure many of you have experienced what it’s like when they go through the negative symptoms. My fiancée refers to this as the “down” time.
My fiancée has been experiencing this for a few months now with no relief. Her family has tried an intervention, but I wasn’t surprised at all when she told me it didn’t work. She refuses therapy and her depression has increased since her pills have dramatically increased her weight (she was bulemic before the onset).
What worries me is the violence. She’s not hurting any other living creature (I don’t think she would take it to anyone else), but she’s been struggling to quit self-harming. Lately, she’s given up trying to quit and has expressed to me that her thoughts are more and more violent. She knows I’m squimish, so she won’t reveal the details, but I can tell she’s even scaring herself. She knows it’s not normal and thinks it’ll keep getting worse.
I told her many times that seeking help would be best, but she still refuses to try (the lethargy/apathy of negative symptoms?). I live in a different country so I can’t drive her myself. Last night she called at 3am and told me that she doesn’t think it’s a smart thing for me to stay in this relationship anymore. She said in the future she doesn’t want to make me wake up at 3am to soak up puddles of blood. Honestly, it doesn’t sound appealing to me either, but I can’t bring myself to leave her.
We’ve been together for almost 10 years now. I’ve dealt with multiple personalities, suicide attempts, drug addictions, and multiple breakups from her. I just don’t know whether it’s smart to go or stick it out.