So I’ve left my job, committed myself to my son and his illness, and now he is home from his second hospitalization and refuses to take his medication and is smoking weed when I’m not looking. He is nineteen and hates taking meds ( which I understand) and still does not think he has this illness. I am fighting this on my own. He absolutely does not want to get better.
He wants to get a job, but can’t focus long enough or give me what I need to make a resume. He blames me for not having a job because I haven’t made a resume but yet no matter how much I ask, he never gets me the info I need. He wouldn’t get a job anyway. His hair hasn’t been washed in a year, nor his teeth brushed, and his fingernails are very long. I buy him nice clothes which are the only clean thing on his body. I play along with the job thing knowing he could not hold down a job. Just thinking it will motivate him but he has no motivation. He’s on 20mgs of Zyprexa and is a zombie, plus sneaking the pot. I have an appointment with his psychdoc tomorrow. He can’t stay on that high dose of Zyprexa.
I go to NAMI, visited him everyday in the hospital, got them to let me bring him special food, find special therapy appointments ( music tomorrow), live on the internet researching this, getting him on Medicaid and SSI, and so many other things. I am so tired. This all seems so hopeless.
So, do I keep making these attempts to help my son who on absolutely no way wants help or do I just let go until he gets to a point where he realizes he needs help?