Threatened breakup to schiz boyfriend, he moved out, I didnt mean it

[Greensoul3982]

New to this group. I am in desperate need of support. My guy with schizophrenia has been stable and medicated for 10 years but has always lived alone. We dated 10 years ago before he was medicated for one year. We reunited 2 years ago. He moved in with me after a few months. We couldnt wait to be together. We love each other so much. I have c-ptsd. He moved out after 6 months because I slept in the other room after a fight. He moved in with his sister. He said we had irreconcilable differences. He left so fast. I did not know if he would ever call me agian. He called 30 days later. We stayed long distance for 6 months. He moved back in. It’s been almost 13 months. My ptsd has been flared up really bad. We have had so much financial stress and I get upset with him for not talking more or being more affectionate. He doesnt understand my ptsd very well. The other night I was so triggered I asked him if he wanted to break up. The next day he avoided me. I felt so scared and misunderstood and abandoned in that moment. I told him we need to discuss breaking up. I told him he was harming me because of how he avoided me and acted afraid of me. I told him I felt like he didnt love me. In that moment he decised to move out. That was two days ago. He is now living back with his sister. He will mot accept us not being friends but told me we would never get back together. He was done. He didn’t feel safe around me. He said my ptsd and anger was too much for him. He said he cannot take one more minute of me being upset with him. He is the love of my life. I blame myself for all of this. Will he come back? We were planning to be together forever. We love each other so much. He says I have done things that are unforgivable to him. I don’t feel I have. Is this an episode?