I feel like good things are happening. For the last 3-4 days my brother in law has told me that my husband seems very normal. His whole family agrees- no more writing backward, no more out of touch with reality, no more anger. The only thing that has changed is that he has not been using cocaine. I’m thinking that perhaps this was drug induced psychosis. The next few days should tell.
Two days ago I called him and told him I didn’t need an answer now but that I wanted to salvage our marriage. Instead of anger, he seemed kind. He told me that he loved me when he hung up. The past two nights he has called and has not left a message. I’m waiting for him to leave a message or text me in case it’s about getting his things or more anger on his part. I’m praying that God’s will be done, and trying to leave it to God.
I am hopeful for him, and trying to have faith in God’s will for us. I know he has looked at renting a house. I don’t know. It is true that no matter what this house and my ex husband across the street is a trigger. I’m trying not to get my hopes up but to have faith.
Any prayers or good thoughts would be appreciated. I don’t know if it is appropriate to say this, but I’m praying that God will either give me acceptance and peace and I will know he has a different plan for me, or that God will work in our lives to reconcile and fix all that has happened… including an agreed upon plan for other episodes. I hope I have the strength to see this through either way it falls.
Thank you all.