Hey everyone, long time not post.
I am full of negativeity right now, and I need to just get it out. I am so sorry.
Things have been sprialing downwards for months now. It started in October, and it seemed like pretty standard Seasonal Affective Disorder. We met with the doctor and strategized. But things kept getting worse. Now, my spouse is not functioning. He has missed so much work. His work called me on Friday for me to pick him up because he was exhibiting symptoms at work. He might need to take a leave of absence, if not quit. He is experiencing delusions and psychosis. He is paranoid and lashes out at me, while isolating himself from everyone else. His doctor tripled his mood stabilizer, but I still walk on eggshells around him. He WANTS to quit his job. He is fixated on taking the LSAT, and spends most of his time studying for the LSAT. This is new, as 2 months ago he wanted to start an online business, and before that he was going to pay $500 for an online astrology school. (I have nothing against any of these things in particular, but his behavior is erratic, is my point)
Money is tight (nonexistent.) I am freaking out. With the extra medications and emergency doctor’s appointments, I don’t think we have enough to get us through the end of the month. I have an appointment to sell plasma this week. I don’t know what to do beyond that.